Loss of a loyal companion

Not really done much on the Z750. We had to have one of our dogs put to sleep last week. it is easily the worst thing you ever have to do, and its not easy to get over. every time I think of him I start tearing up, and being male, I fight my brain away from the thoughts so as not to show too much emotion.

its been over a week, and I'm still finding it hard to concentrate on anything but the fact that there is a great big hole in our lives. my wife is taking it harder, but then he was her dog really. followed her everywhere. that's another reason i need to be strong. i have to support her through this.

how long will this continue? that's a question I have actually googled and there is no answer. this year has been a bad one for us. we lost our Labrador in January, and now we've lost another on. fingers crossed we don't lose any more this year, or for a few more years.

I have started work on a memorial slate for them, and i think that that will help me and my wife.

I thought that i had finished grieving for my lab (we do have 'our' dogs which are more either mine or my wife's, and the lab was mine), but losing another one has brought fresh tears for my loyal companion. it's also brought up more grieving for the other dogs we've lost over the years. it seems to have no end.

so if I do find a 'cure' for grieving, i'll be sure to let you know, although I may market it, as I'd be sure to make a fortune.

we did get a puppy recently (to train as a support dog), and she is doing a good job of keeping our spirits up. she is so bouncy, and we are currently trying to socialise her as much as possible. between training, socialising and playing with her, she really does help keep our minds in the present.

anyway, I'll get back to the Z750 now, I'm sure you've had enough of reading this.

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